Moses said, “This is what the LORD has commanded: ‘Take an omer of manna and keep it for the generations to come, so they can see the bread I gave you to eat in the wilderness when I brought you out of Egypt.’”
When I look in the bible I see so many verses on food. Whether they are regarding sustaining a population, breaking bread with others, or celebrations with food. God fed the Israelites while they were in the dessert, Jesus fed the multitudes with a few fishes and loaves of bread. The apostles broke bread with Jesus the night before he was arrest. God performed many miracle with food. He has taught us many a lesson through these miracles and today He has taught me a lesson about food and the meaning of eating versus using food as an idol or even crutch.
In the last few years I have gained quite a bit of weight. It started out because I discovered I loved to bake pastry, breads, cookies and cupcakes. Ahhh the cupcake. Cupcake wars had become the go to show on Sunday nights and finding a cupcake shop that had been on Cupcake Wars was put on my “bucket list.” And yes, that has been checked off the list!
But as I sit here in the hospital for my 6th night after having abdominal surgery to remove a large colon polyp I really began to think and pray and ask God what I was doing wrong. Why was I not able to eat yet? The only thing holding me back from going home was food! One of the things that I truly love the most in the world. Anyone who knows me knows this. And here I sit blogging from my hospital bed because of food. I have to be able to “tolerate” eating 2 meals in a row to be able to go home. It became quite clear to me today after a walk around the hospital floor what was going on. God was giving me another clear message and it has taken me a few days to figure it out. I needed to take food off of that list that some days was above God in my daily life. Food had become an idol and it clearly needed to be put back in it’s place. It’s place is for sustenance. Food is one of the things that our body takes to live on this earth. BUT not an overload of it or overindulgence of it.
Tonight as my carefully chosen dinner was put in front of me I prayed. I prayed to God for my body to be able to tolerated what I was going to feed it. I prayed in thanksgiving for again teaching me what was coming between my relationship with Him. And I prayed to be able to go home tomorrow to the family that I love and want to see so badly.
Thank you Jesus for being my Savior and ALL that I need on a daily basis. Thank you for the rememberance of the manna put in a jar for generations to remind us that God can and WILL give us all we need.